Some of my favorite childhood memories come from the sand being in between my toes. Sunset Beach is a unique beach in Cape May, New Jersey that instead of sand, has small, smooth stones and shells, as well as famously known, Cape May diamonds. They are quartz stones that are clear and resemble diamonds and are sold as a souvenir in Cape May Point. I associate Cape May with a ten-year-old me, hilariously posing for a selfie in front of the ocean, sun kissed, fake purple ray bans, silly octopus earrings, way too many necklaces, and a classic pouty face and peace sign pose. Literally like every other kid on their summer vacation or birthday party. Every time I look at this photo I think of how stupid and awkward I look, nut also at the same time so beautiful. I’ve always been considered an outgoing person, or at least my mother has always told me I am an outgoing person. I would find some other kid at the beach, and just say “hey!” and help them finish building their sandcastle. It wasn’t hard for me to find new friends. It was hard for me to find good, trustworthy friends however. I think that’s gotten even harder for me. I often am finding myself alone in college. I eat alone, I do homework alone, I go shopping alone, and the list goes on. Am I too picky in who I let in my life on such a level? I have close friends, maybe only about two or three, and every so often a significant other, but none of them live on campus. So, whenever I do want to hang out with them, it must be planned well in advance, or I wait till I can go back home to New Jersey. I find myself not trying as much as I used to when I was young, I don’t randomly insert myself into other situations or conversations with people I do not know, and I find that I don’t vibe with certain personalities that are too upbeat or energetic. I'm too tired now of those people. Between school, work, and having no money. I wish I was ten again and had my mother paying for everything I wanted and having it so easy at school. When my life was as clear as one of the Cape May diamonds that lay on the beach. As clear as my sun kissed, doesn’t know what acne hell is coming to it, skin.
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AuthorSamantha Salvemini, 19, Film and Moving Image major with a Producing and Writing Minor at Stevenson University Archives
May 2019
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